A rut................

"The most difficult lie I have ever contended with is this:  Life is a story about me"
     "I hear addicts talk about the shakes and panic attacks and the highs and lows of resisting their habit, and to some degree I understand them because I have had habits of my own, but no drug is so powerful as the drug of self.  No rut in the mind is so deep as the one that says I am the world, the world belongs to me, all people are characters in my play.  There is no addiction so powerful as self-addiction."
-Donald Miller, Blue Like Jazz