how slowly we evolve..................

      I have to believe that a real higher power is struggling in this as much as we are.  But horribly, if healing and care are going to get done, it will be love working through us.  Us!  In our current condition, not down the road, when we are in the fullness of our restoration, in wholeness, compassionate detachment, patient amusement.  Us, now.  It has taken years for me to get this well, which is to say, half as reactive and a third less obsessed with my own neurotic disappointing self.  I don't agree with the pace of how slowly we evolve toward patience, wisdom, forgiveness.  Anyone would understand if we gave up and settled, the way people settle into terrible marriages.  But these are our lives.  Se we try, we do the work of becoming saner and more authentic, which is hard enough without truly monstrous people crashing our lives, often - not always - through marriage, although I am not going to name names.  Well, maybe just one...

-Anne Lamott,  Small Victories:  Spotting Improbably Moments of Grace